I’ve been feeling very VERY down lately & I blame it on certain situations that are going on right now that have made me very unhappy.
Scariest thing is that since my grandfather’s death, I’ve slipped up & fallen into deep depression because it was the real first time that something out of my control affected me in the way that it did.
The medications that doctors prescribe you are terrible because it makes you feel absolutely nothing. Not even happiness. You’re just so indifferent to the world around you.
I see myself slowly falling into that pattern again. The excess naps during the days, the sleepless nights, irritability, & just feeling like there is no silver lining.
However, since I’m a heavy thinker, it works towards my advantage because I’m well aware of what’s happening.
I know I need to be out more. Whether it be going for a walk, sitting somewhere outdoors, anything, I know I need to do it.
I’ve also found writing helps me a lot. No one really understands your situation like you do & it’s very easy for one to give you an uneducated opinion when they know nothing of the subject. But my pen and paper are non-judgmental so I hope to write on various topics more on here.